I believe that it is fully possible to be fully enjoying being far from home and to miss home at the same time. It is, I believe a dialectical emotional state where one experiences seemingly mutually exclusive emotions at the same time. . . because in reality emotions are not mutually exclusive.

You can be truly, deeply sad about something and also feel good about it.

This is life.

It’s not clear and tidy.

It is messy and confusing and deeply deeply emotional.

And on the note of experience seeming opposites at the same time, my mind feels alert and wants to stay up, but I am yawning and my eyes are tearing up from exhaustion!

I will leave this writing moment in favor of sleep.

#OTR50
234 Days to go.

© Randi Sumner